Hello, I’m excited to be publishing this post regarding a review of my 2019 and more importantly a forward-look into the coming year and decade! Last year I wrote a post about creating the sustainable habit of goal setting. I even wrote a mid-year review check-in like I set out to do. Although, I’ve been dreading my end of the year review mostly because I’ve failed at completing all of my goals.
Personally, I don’t feel so bad about not achieving all the goals I set out to accomplish. Why? Because I’ve done a lot of work in recovery and I’ve learned that I’ll never be perfect no matter how hard I try. The good news is that I can look to Jesus for perfection♥.
Furthermore, I’ve learned to embrace my failings as opportunities for growth. This is how our bodies and minds are designed. Think about it, how do you grow muscle? In layman’s terms, you lift heavy weights to exhaustion. This breaks down your muscles so that they can repair and grow back stronger. This occurs while you rest.
The keywords here are exhaustion (or work), breaking down, repair, rest and growth.
In all things, we need to put forth effort and work. Yeah, that means working like a boss until you are exhausted whether it be mentally, physically or both. Then allow for some breakdowns and failures. Trust me, they’re gonna happen so please learn to embrace them! This is your golden opportunity to rest & reflect on how things failed and what you could do differently to achieve the results you are looking for. Ultimately, you’ll experience growth.
So why was I dreading writing my end of the year review if I’ve truly embraced failing forward? Well partly, because I’m still a work in progress and additionally because admitting failure out loud to an audience is tough. I’m still a fairly new blogger and not wholly used to having an audience to keep me accountable for the things I set out to do with my money and otherwise.
Yeah, I have accountability partners in recovery and in my Christian walk that call me out on stuff. However, I suppose with this platform, I’ve fallen back into that lie that I need to be perfect.
News flash: I’m not! Fortunately, I’ve recognized this thanks to the accountability in having to write an end of the year review. Before I could sit down to write this post, I needed to identify the root behind the dread of writing it. Now, that I have I can move forward with confidence so here goes…
2019 – A Year in Review
Okay, so I must start off this section with a snapshot of my goals for the past year:
So let’s break each one down:
Create a Will
This was one of my 2018 goals and it didn’t get done so it became one of my 2019 goals. Well, guess what folks, it still didn’t get done. Haha, I have to laugh because it is kind of comical! My big takeaway is that making it again a goal for the third year in a row, might not be the way to go about succeeding here. After I go through each goal, I’ll share how I plan to shape my 2020 vision differently and set myself up for success.
Write Two Pages of My Book Each Week
Okay, we are now 2 for 2 because I’ve also failed at this goal. Hmm, something might be very wrong with this process. Although, I can speak a little bit more specifically why this one failed…
Early in the year, I lost about 10-20 pages of progress I had made on the book. I tried to embrace it as a clean slate but let’s face it losing work kinda sucks. Anyway, I did plow forward and write an outline. Then I got to writing weekly again. I experienced some depression in the summer and still wrote. Then as I came out of that funk, I rebranded and started to seek advice. Sometimes too many voices can cause paralysis. Here are some of the things I heard:
- Memoirs are dead
- Memoirs are not dead but don’t write it in chronological order
- Make a name for yourself first; otherwise, others won’t want to read your memoir
- Stop writing and create your product
- Decide first if you want to self publish, use a hybrid approach, or use a publisher
- Maybe create a course first
Those are lots of different messages! There is value in seeking the sage wisdom of others who have gone before us but my advice is to take it all with a grain of salt.
For me, there comes a time when I need to reflect, pray and seek the wisdom and direction from my heavenly Father. If He wants me to write a book and gives me the outline in which to write it, then there will be an anointing on it. While I’ve never actually written a book, I have no doubt that I can do it. The real question I need to ask is what does Jesus want me to write.
Once I seek that, I’ll find the anointing.
Remember My Word for 2019 – Truth
Success! I’m so happy to report that this was remembered and practiced throughout the year. How? I made it a daily reoccurring goal on my todoist app on my phone. Literally, each day of the year when I opened my app, I had to check this goal off reminding myself to practice truth in all things.
The motivation for this goal came from the confession of a lie which I wrote about on this blog. I didn’t like how I felt about that lie and so I vowed to practice telling the truth even in lieu of white lies.
Have I been challenged here? You betcha! I’ve caught myself in little white lies and been convicted to confess to others. I’ve even had people tell me how much they appreciate honesty. Well, that’s refreshing!
Why do I struggle with this bad habit? Well, when I drank and drugged, I lived a double life. I was often telling one person something while telling another something else. It just became a bad habit and to break a habit it takes intentionality. Checking off this goal each day kept me intentional.
Hold My First Annual Review
Now we are tied – 2 wins and 2 fails. I did this in June and plan to do another one again in June of 2020. An annual review is simply a time to look over my investments, my financial goals, compare my progress with my plan and adjust accordingly. Furthermore, it’s the time I do some rebalancing of my investment to stay inline with my desired asset allocation.
You can read more about how my annual review went this past year in my mid-year check-in. Next year, I’d really love to get away to work on this even if it just means going to the library!
Be the Kind of Person My Niece & Nephews Think I am
They look up to me and do not take that lightly. I want to always be an integral person and be the kind of person whose yesses mean yes and my no’s mean no.
Well, this final goal, fortunately, tipped the scale to having more wins than losses. I succeeded in this one because I also put it into my todoist app as a reoccurring daily task. Hmm, a daily reminder for habits might just be the key!
Embracing a New Decade with 20/20 Vision
So what am I going to do differently this year? Well for one, I’m not setting goals but creating new habits. I’ve obtained this profound advice from listening to an interview with James Clear, author of Atomic Habits, on the ChooseFI podcast. Oh, trust me I’ll also be reading his book in 2020. However, I gleaned enough to understand the importance of embracing and learning to love the process of creating habits in order to become the type of person who_______________ (fill in the blank).
In studying my year in review I’ve discovered that I was successful in the things that centered around creating a new habit (being truthful and the type of person my niece & nephew think I am). I embraced the process.
That being said, I would like to 1.) continue to become the type of person who authors a book. 2.) Remain a person who sticks to her financial plan. 3.) Additionally, I’d like to be the type of person who is Younger Next Year. 4.) Furthermore, I’d like to become the type of person who teaches what she knows.
That being said, I’ve identified the habits I will embrace:
- Pray for direction on what I write.
- Write every day whether it be a sentence or a chapter, whether it be on the blog, in a journal or for a book.
- Keep pumping money into my investments, hold an annual review and yes set up a will because that’s what a financially responsible person does.
- Move every day but exercise vigorously 5-6 times a week
- Eat healthy whole foods
- Teach what I know and continue developing my curriculums
- Teach in-person and online
I feel I have real clarity about how to embark in this new decade and it’s no mistake that my vision is 20/20 in 2020. I pray the same blessing for you this year and decade. Will things change as we traverse forward? Yep, but that doesn’t mean that we cannot have clarity of the habits and life we are called to create.
How about you? What are your visions for the new year/decade? What type of person would you like to become? Furthermore, what habits will help you be that person?